A Few Days in Hell

Actually it's been more like this entire week has been horrible in one way or another.  I tried to not give myself false hope...I tried to be my usual, realistic self.  I knew that there was a very minute chance (like .00001%) that maybe, just maybe, getting the rest of my thyroid out would make my fibromyalgia go away...or even just make it slightly less severe.  I never took the time to think that the 2nd surgery would make the fibro worse...what was I thinking?  Or was I thinking?